why do i tire myself out all the time? i always sleep hella late and almost never get a full night's rest. it's funny that on the weekends, instead of catching up on sleep, i end up also sleeping much much less than on the weekedays, and on the weekdays i barely squeeze 6 hours of sleep each night....
i've contemplated sleeping regular hours on the weekdays and then making it up by just not sleeping at all during the weekends... but i find that it's no fun staying up when everyone else is sleeping... i blame alot of my friends for my odd sleeping habits... tho its most likely and prolly is still boiling down to me.....
what makes me fix my odd sleeping habits? it's most likely having someone... i'll admit, i did sleep a lot more when i had someone with me.... it never seemed so bad just falling asleep together (especially in the winter time since my room is a shriveling 50 degrees... ugh..) i find that when i'm alone, my mind begins to wander and the million things that i need to do start to get in the way and i reason myself to not fall asleep and instead stay up and do something... ironically, in staying up, i end up just procrastinating and watching tv or playing video games and so not only do i not do one of ht emillion things i was supposed to do.. but i also did not sleep in the process... and what do i havve to show for?!?! exhaustion and the proud fact that i just pwnt-ed some faces last night on halo3.... yes... my life is that dull.... but when u have someone with you, nothing else really matters other than just going to bed with that person... it was easier to fall asleep because it allowed ur mind to not wander and focus on something that means a lot to you...
yeah, it was easier to fall asleep back then... these days, in order to get myself to fall asleep i just exhaust myself each day to ensure that the following night, i will force myself to fall asleep.... otherwise if i had my way, i wouldn't sleep at all...
honestly, if there was a pill that i could take that would eliminate the need for sleep.. i'd prolly take it... maybe then i'd have enough time to put my life back together.... its funny because i really do love sleep.... i love sleep but i also hate it... i guess it depends on how many things i need to do.... i prolly don't really hate sleep... more like i hate how our bodies get exhausted and require sleep.... if we didn't require sleep then i'd prolly just do it recreationally (like sunday afternoon naps = THE BEST.... especiallly after dimsum)
i dunno why i decided to blog about sleep this morning... prolly cuz i had a weird dream that i woke up and that it was already 9:30am and i still had to get ready and go to work (i have a 10am meeting today and i would have missed it) so in my dream i was rushing to make it and then there was traffic (somehow my morning commute turned from 5 miles and 10 minutes in san jose to 1.5 hours from across the bay area all the way in san francisco... i dunno how that happened) so i woke up from this dream, looked at my alarm clock... saw that it was only 7am and i was actually SO happy... why? because that meant 2 more hours of sleep (yeah, i wake up at 9am if i really want to... u jealous?!?!? =P ) woke up and now here i am...
the many misadventures of my sad little life can span a few hours yet i can say so much about it....
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