Thursday, June 19, 2014

Dreams: But what do they all mean?!?!

Last night i had a dream that is a recurring dream that happens, i don't know maybe several times a year.  maybe more often, but i don't really register it all that much.

I can't tell if it's a nightmare or just a regular dream but it always leaves me in some kind of anxious state and i wonder if it's due to the movies that i watch or something deeper that i'm going through that i can't figure out what.   

These dreams that i have are like one giant suspense-thriller movie.  It usually involves me having to run away from the law, or being hunted by someone (or something) in this world.   sometimes it's zombies, aliens, a mad killer, or even a crazy ex-gf (but i can deduce the meaning behind that nightmare).

Last night, the dream was about me being framed for a murder and having to run away while trying to gather evidence to prove my innocence.  Usually in these dreams, all the odds are sadly against my favor, almost damn near impossible.  I don't recall the whole dream, but fragments here and there, highlights if you will.  At one scene in the dream, i was stuck in a high office building (maybe 15 or 20 stories up) that reminds me a little of Engineering IV back at UCLA except it was jagged bricks on the side, but same color with a raised courtyard overlooking the parking garage.  Apparently something was in this office building that i needed to obtain or speak to someone because I risked exposing myself in a heavily populated area and after finding what i needed to get, i was being chased through the office building by armed individuals.   (maybe cuz i've been watching the new season of 24?)   So i run to the raised courtyard and look around with no means of escape.  The security folks are coming straight for me, but they don't know exactly where i am.  they've locked all the entrances leaving me with very few options.  either attempt to scale down the face of the building (apparently there's no guards in the outside of the building because this is my dream and that's just the way it is) or find a hiding place and hope they never find me and give up.  I choose to scale down the building, i hop over the railing and of course my fear of heights take over.  My palms begin to get sweaty and my legs feel like jelly as i'm grabbing for footholds and hand grips using the jagged bricks.  Anyone seen Bourne Identity?  kind of like that scene at the embassy almost.  As i'm scaling through (20 stories up mind you) I hear the guards at the raised courtyard and i'm afraid they'll look down and find me.  I find a recessed corner in the building with bricks that are offsetting one another for very easy climbing and i hug the face of the building; trying with all my might to merge with the building and hopefully not get seen.  Thankfully it worked and i continue to scale down the building until i reach the ground; a feat i probably wouldn't think i would be able to do.  I rush to my car (still drive the same car even in my dream. my good old 2000 honda accord) and jump in and speed off. 

But i'm not out of the woods yet.  my car is now a wanted vehicle, and i'm sure since i've been identified that they know my license plate number.  apparently in your dreams you're not supposed to be able to read things, but since i memorized my license plate, i guess my mind just naturally assumed that's what it was on my car.  So instead of ditching my car and stealing a new car (looking back, this may have been the easier option) i instead tried to hide in plain sight by switching license plates.  As i was about to switch license plates i realized that i will also be easily caught with this idea because if these stolen plates are ever run through the computer, it could say the model is some camry or civic as to which if the cop running my plates may soon realize that i have the wrong plates for my car.  So i spent a good portion of my time trying to find a black honda accord to switch plates with.  and do this every day so the trail never gets picked up.   I begin to drive cross country for no apparent reason, with the hopes of never being found.  Not sure if there was a purpose or a destination i was going to, maybe i was just trying to lose the heat for a while, lay low, and figure out things later.  anyhow once i felt like i was safe or that the heat was off (for now) is when i woke up in the middle of the night with a WTF look on my face.

don't know if any of this has any deeper meanings.  it just seems like a melding of many tv shows, movies, and books i've read in my life all being applied to me as the main character of the story.  these types of dreams happen more than once, enough to prompt me to write this as i woke up.  maybe one day a psychiatrist can tell me what this is all about.

Friday, May 09, 2014

amazing choreo

been following these two for a while now but how i got here was cuz michael songs have been playing through my mind lately... been dancing in my cube (to myself of course) to dangerous and decided to see if there was any choreo that people have done to this song...


Friday, March 21, 2014

Thursday, March 20, 2014

shivers down my spine

there aren't very many singers out there that can give me goosebumps, send shivers down my spine, and maybe even shed a tear that they are no longer with us when i watch them sing live....

but she never disappoints

Whitney Houston

Thursday, February 27, 2014

best thing i saw today

how can this NOT make u smile?


Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Is your mind playing tricks on you?

is the beep just a beep and my mind is subconsciously adding the F sound and the CK sound before and after the beep...   or did the maker do it?   i..... i can't tell....

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

The Awesome Movie

if you have the time.... i HIGHLY recommend... and i mean HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend watching The Lego Movie....

i would say it was almost as awesome as watching Toy Story for the first time....

Monday, February 24, 2014

Appreciate it for more than it actually is...

as many of you know (if you haven't already) i love to rewatch movies... oftentimes i like to fill my time with mindless moments, but if you've ever sat with me to watch a movie i've already watched you'll notice something.  i'm almost always paying full attention to the movie.  I prefer no talking in movies (but i'm fairly lenient towards the fact unless it's a movie i've never seen before) and the usual reason for that?

i LOVE film scores...

i think music is such a huge part about a movie and if you've ever sat down and listened to any of the classic film scores of our days past, you can practically play the movie in your head while closing your eyes listening to any of these songs.

Now this is only 10 of the best, but I mean, the Dark Knight series, Inception (BAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.... BUAAAAMMMMMMMMM), Forest Gump's theme, and a host of a zillion other movies should belong in this list.

It's the reason why i invest in a speaker system, and a home theater box that fully brings to life the original film's score.  as much as everyone loves Dolby Digital or DTS sound formats, the true way to listen to alot of these film scores is through an uncompressed PCM format which I didn't know until i got my new home theater system and I will admit, it makes a HUGE difference in what you hear.

i'll probably watch all the movies i've already seen now a billion times over in my lifetime, and it will always ring true to my ears and never gets old.  just like people can listen to some songs over again, i do the same with my eyes and ears for rewatching some of the most iconic pieces from when we grew up.

Here's a playlist I quickly made of some very iconic movie film scores:

Film Scores by Adrian on Grooveshark

Sunday, February 23, 2014


and.... um.... this is why me and my friend didn't get drunk in thailand....

Thursday, February 20, 2014

The Eye of the Beholder

Dear blog... i'm sorry i've neglected you.  there have been tons and tons of things i've wanted to write about and i've sat in my chair, or laid in bed thinking "this would be something great to write about" and yet i choose not to thinking to myself "it will always be there when i need it."   and now it's been months since i've written anything of quality on my blog.  nothing but videos or photos with nothing of my original thoughts or voice placed here and I apologize that i've neglected it for so long.   All i can say is that:

life gets in the way

pretty much all there is to it.  there's no excuse or anything, all i can say is... just start again and see where it goes from there.

a friend of mine sent me this article today:

I can't post the video up for some reason (i'm too lazy to figure it out... i'm sure there's a way) but let me just take the description and give you my two cents..

Maybe it's no surprise that when offered the opportunity to be featured in a celebrity-style photo shoot, four women jumped at the chance. The shocker: their negative reaction to the retouched results. The BuzzFeed video "Four Women React to Their Photoshop Makeovers" struck a chord with viewers. It racked up over 5 million views in one week and has become one of BuzzFeed's top 10 videos of all time. The idea for the video was an "experiment" that asks: "How would women who weren't models or celebrities react if you Photoshop them the way that cover models are regularly Photoshopped?" Andrew Gauthier, the video producer, told Yahoo. He added that the women were chosen for their "unique backgrounds and perspectives." Their conclusions to the photos were all the same, and everyone involved in making the video "was totally surprised by the reaction," said Gauthier. 

My initial reaction to watching this film and reading the description was that it was complete bullshit.

for these reasons:

I question these people really. "Who really looks like this?" there are actually those who NATURALLY look like this and i bet you anything that if these girls put their photos up on facebook or instagram and within 5 minutes, will immediately change their tune. Even if they put up a caption saying "just got myself professionally photoshopped.... i can't believe it doesn't look like me!!!!" and then immediately the masses of people on social media begin "liking the photo" adding the "you look beautiful" comments... i almost FULLY believe that some of these girls will all of a sudden change their tune... it's human nature.... and lets say a few of them don't.... what are the odds that the producer of this video found 4 girls AT RANDOM to all have the same opinion about their alter egos...   shouldn't there be at least some who don't share their same views?  anyone question that 4 is such a small sample size?

which leads me to my second point:

the power of media and surveys... the producer of this film found 4 women who all reacted the same way to their touched up photos? i guarantee you that does not express the general views of the world. i get that they are trying to send a positive message but 4 out or 4, a 100% hit-rate on women who were shocked and appalled at their own looks changed to make themselves look more beautiful is utter horse poopoo. the validity of this would have been 75% but 100%? i doubt they only took 4 people... because you take 4 people at random and i guarantee you it won't be 100%. Maybe they took 20 people and found 4 with the exact reactions that they wanted to portray for this article piece...  so at least be truthful about it.... say over 80% of women were shocked at what they saw and then proceed to show the testimonials of the 4 who gave the best answers... i would have accepted that and yet i still hold my ground to those two points....

not all people would react the way these 4 just did... just scour instagram, twitter, and facebook and you'll find millions of people who take nonstop selfies to promote just how good they think they are by putting on makeup, pushup bras, cute outfits, or taking their selfies in the right angles to make them look prettier and then wait for the  tens, hundreds, or thousands of likes and comments to inflate their own egos

i don't doubt that there are those (noble ones) that view the world the way these 4 do... but call me a cynic or a realist but i'm pretty sure that the rest of this world would not react the same way these 4 would.... at the least 50% could not wait to post their photos up on some form of social media...

and please don't think i'm just directing this to women.  i would say the same if this video was all doods as well.  we all share the same want and desire to look better in this world and we shouldn't be surprised at how much people are willing to take shortcuts in order to get to that desired "like" on social media.   How are diet pills any different than falsely photoshopping yourself?  both are shortcuts to a different you that you can post up somewhere.  

in the end, i get what this video was trying to promote.  and it is a noble cause.  i just question that it was 100% all of them thought the same way.  it was just too good to be true to be considered a "shocker"   but in the end it is a positive message, one i share and hope to take to heart.  i do catch myself (more than i care to admit) looking at myself in the mirror wishing maybe this was different or that was different, but doesn't mean i don't love myself.  that's what working is for.  wanting to change yourself for yourself.  you want to lose that love handle?  go and do it... the baby fat cheeks?  go for it... that's what the gym is for or running shoes... we've all caught ourselves wishing we could change something about our selves.... but we sometimes forget why are we doing it.  are we doing it because we want to feel better about ourselves.  healthier.  lead a more positive life.   or are we doing it for vanity, a like on facebook or instagram, or to say we're better than others.   maybe everything is a little bit of both, and that's just how i think the world works sometimes.  after all is said and done.... do what makes you happy i guess...

Friday, February 14, 2014

Friday, January 10, 2014

learn to love again...

man... i miss......... dancing lol

Thursday, December 19, 2013

is this what it's come down to?

I just watched this... and yes, i found it funny... yes i found it entertaining... and damnit Mariah Carey you have the catchiest christmas song ever... 15 years and it seems to get better and better every year