moving on....

you know... with the NFL and the MLB post-season going on lately i've been watching a lot more television than I normally do and there has been a few commercials that really do stand out in my mind.  from the comical "Very Superstitious..." commercials with bud-light or Drew Bree's singing in his pepsi commercial (very hilarious actually) but there's been one commercial that i've always been watching lately that strikes a little different chord inside of me.  it has nothing to do with what the product is selling and honestly in a marketing back-fire i couldn't remember what company / product the commercial was about but rather the premise behind the commercial:

Citi's commercial titled "The Ex"  (YEAH.......)



It's no secret that yes, I am back to being single once again through a weird and wacky turn of events these last 3 months.  the feeling of betrayal really hurt for a bit and I realized just how long I have lived my life with the thought of caring for someone else rather than myself.  to find that all those efforts that i put forth into something that ended up being futile and leaving me with pretty much nothing other than "life lessons" in the end... moral victories are great and maybe in the end it will serve to be something valuable to me...

but watching this commercial over and over again i've learned, or rather have always known and briefly forgot, that there are so many things to enjoy in this world that one person who, after everything that has happened, was never really worth the time effort i put in, should not even put a dent in what i consider a wonderful life i have had thus far.  i could only be so blessed to have a wonderful family, friends, and have learned once again to enjoy everything there is to enjoy in life.  from my childhood memories of playing video games, to the absolute chaos when watching sports both on TV and live, enjoying music once again, exercising and feeling healthy for myself, and making plans for the sake of myself in the future...  i wouldn't say that i'm selfish... rather i would like to think i am opposite even though i do have some selfish tendencies but then again who doesn't?  we can all afford to be selfish at times because in the end it is our own lives we are living.   and i've realized that what she did was her chance to be selfish as well.  granted the wake from the selfish act reverberates to the pain it causes on others but i'll just have to chalk it up to the fact that some people are decent human beings while others are simply cold-hearted.

i realize that.

i accept that.

that's fine.  life after the wake has actually not been all that bad and dare i say there have been considerable improvements in some facets of my life that i haven't been able to realize and I guess that's why i really like this commercial.  we all learn to pick ourselves up after the chips are down.  earlier this month, on October 6th marked the last "event" that i had scheduled in my last relationship.... the end all event.... and to think i would have actually been at that next step right now.... and i wonder sometimes.... which reality is ACTUALLY better?  it's something we'll never actually know but what i do know is what i am in right now is the true reality and we all deal with the cards that have been dealt... i guess i'll find some other posts to truly reflect on everything that's been going on right now but after having heard some sad news today it has made me realize how precious life is right now.... to enjoy every minute of it... and hopefully i'll find someone who will enjoy it with me...

Song of the Day:    Alicia Keys - Girl on Fire