butterfly effect

ever seen that movie?   i saw it a long time ago and i don't remember it too vividly; but i recall that someone really close to him dies or something tragic happens.  so he relives the moments over and over again, each time trying to change something to prevent the tragic event from happening.  the butterfly effect simply states that even the change in direction of a butterfly's wings in the past can have a giant impact on the outcome of events in the future.  sadly enough, there are things in this universe that can't be changed, hence the premise of the movie because eveyrtime he tries to change something, the tragedy still occurs in one way or form which bodes another interesting topic which is destiny... but we'll save that for another time...

i bring this up because i've maybe written this post 3 or 4 times now and it all ends with the same tone, same ending, and me deleting it or refusing to post it.   no matter how many times i change it up, change the title, try and change my mood to begin with, it always seems to end up with the same conclusion leading me to just not want to post it at all.   odd huh?  i'm writing a blog post about how i write blog posts... and if you've made it this far you've pretty much sat through my rant on how i can't really write about what i wanted to write about initially....

why?

for many reasons.... none of which i'll go into detail but i just find it interesting that a simple subject, a simple starting, and it always leads to the same ending and also to the same feeling of wanting to just delete it.  after looking over my several drafts i noticed that pattern and i noticed the ending still came out the same and the first thing i thought of when writing this 5th version of this post was the movie listed above.

i'm supposed to wake up in about an hour, and i'm contemplating if i should this hour to try and get some sleep, or go back and watch butterfly effect on xbmc....

i'll let u know how it goes in the morning